Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Men At Work

I feel like there isn't a lot to share lately. I'm just getting my health in check and hopefully my hormones will balance out. I've felt like giving up on losing weight a lot lately because at times I feel helpless. However, I haven't given up if I do now I won't want to get back on track. I've resolved to work harder this week and to make smarter choices. I have been in charge of the lessons in Primary this month and they have all been about treating our bodies as temples. I fully believe this month was meant for me because I need to treat my body right; eat right and exercise and stop feeling bad for myself. Alex and I have had some life changing events that have molded us to be who we are today and I refuse to be a sad person because I have to work harder than other just to have a family. It's funny because I kept feeling like... some people wait for a  missionary, other a spouse, other for a baby... I have waited for them all. It doesn't make it easy but I know that I appreciate Alex SO MUCH because all that happened with us before we got married. I can't tell you how often people ask us if we just got married. I hope that with all the changes that will happen to us in the future I hope that people thinking we have the love of newly weds never changes. I love that we appreciate the little moments we have together! I truly know I have married the BEST MAN for me and all the waiting was worth it! I know it'll be the same once we have our own kids, we'll both have such an appreciation for them!

We grow as we work hard and I've been doing well in my MBA class and can't believe I'll be graduated in less than a year. I should graduate in May or June and it's amazing to know that I'll have accomplished something that I always told myself I'd do. The next obstacle is to find a job that pays for that education so I can pay off the loan! :) Lots of prayer on that one! There's a lot of work ahead in my life and I'm getting excited and nervous about it.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011


So, last week I went to my OB because I’ve been in A LOT of pain and I had a feeling it was cysts on my ovaries. So, she ran a bunch of test and I’ve know that I had PCOS but I hadn’t ever been officially diagnosed. So I went back today for the results and I do have PCOS.
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a condition in which there is an imbalance of a woman's female sex hormones. This hormone imbalance may cause changes in the menstrual cycle, skin changes, small cysts in the ovaries, trouble getting pregnant and other problems.

I did receive some results that I didn’t expect. She also found out that I have Hypothyroidism.
Hypothyroidism is a condition in which the thyroid gland does not make enough thyroid hormone.
I will not be on a bunch of medication to try and fix my body and hopefully make it so I can finally get pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy. I hope that this will all work out and that my body will heal itself. My Dr said it is likely that my thyroid created problems for me while being pregnant and could be why we lost the baby.  I have a ultrasound tomorrow to see how bad the cysts are, hopefully not too bad.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Pot Hole

It's been some time since my last post because I haven't known what to write. There is a lot going on with me, some great some not so great. Isn't that the same with everyone? We got a new puppy... which I am still a little scared about I don't want my stuff chewed up, but she is cute and keeps me busy. She like to snuggle and I love that! I am back in school and trying to stay on top of my school work! I worked out at the pre-school for a few weeks cooking and it was actually a nice little break from my normal job it was nice to enjoy cooking and watching two-year-old's play while I cook (their classroom was right by the kitchen).

I have been experiencing some great pain in my ovaries so I finally went to the DR... fetal demise... this is a term I didn't remember hearing before but it is how they categorize what happened to us back in December. Infertility, it's what they are testing me for and hopefully the tests will be back in a week or so. I have always had cysts but they are now thinking there are more than just cysts preventing me from getting pregnant again. My mind has went all over the place knowing that not only am I in great pain but I also can't get pregnant because something is not right in my body. It feels so... annoying... I am already 26 and worried I won't get pregnant for a long time and then we won't be able to have as many kids as we would like. I would LOVE to adopt and have always wanted to, but I don't have thousands of dollars to adopt. They need a realistic way for normal people to adopt it's just so expensive! Needless to say I have no idea what is going to happen but hopefully Alex and I will be able to figure out what we should do, and hopefully we'll know soon! This is a HUGE pot hole in my life right now, I REALLY want to be a mom!!!